define love.
what is love?
someone once told me,"love is 1% happiness and 99% pain"
somehow i can relate to that.i swear,my love life is damm fucked up.
see,first it was von.now its mb.hmm.
what did i do to deserve all this?
didnt i treat her good?didnt i?

well,i hate the fact that i could ever hate her,
and the fact that i will love her no matter what she put me through.
why?i always ask myself.how is it that she can manipulate me so well?
why do i let myself sink into this fucking mess?i hate it.just one sweet thing she does,it can make me forget all the wrongs she have done to me.just one simple word "i miss you",affects me soooo much.
just one,"i wanna see you" i can drop everything and just rush down.
everyone tells me that im a fool.
yes i admit,i am a fool.
but,when i see her cry,when i see her upset,it tears me apart.
i will have this urge to just hold her and tell her she will have me through it all.
sigh.i know that all these shld stop.
i shouldnt let her manipulate me any longer.
but how?how am i suppose to do it?
sigh.
maybe someday,you will realise that "there was once a girl who was willing to give me her all,but i let her slipped through my fingers"one day.

and meanwhile,jiabao have to stop caring so much.
stop getting so affected.
stop being so emotional.
and stop disappointing those who care sooo much for me.
thanks peeps.i really need all the encouragement i can get.
i know you guys are with me through it all.love you guys man.

♥jiabao