redundant

feeling rather redundant right now.
nothings seems right.
and yes,i think im fucking my life up.
what happen today is like a dream.
i wished i would just wake up from this never ending nightmare.this feeling sucks.
hate myself,hate my existence,hate this world.


well,thanks b.
yesterday,it was beautiful.
and you know whats the irony?
its people who you never thought would comfort you
that brings you such comfort.
thanks thanks thanks and more thanks.
to watch the cars pass,
to walk in the rain
to watch the sun rise,
to enjoy the morning breeze,
to hear the birds sing.
and although it brought me much comfort,
it didnt take the problems away,
the pain still exist.
dont scold me already,im sorry.
i told you that when i can,i will definately pick myself up.
trust me on that,a promise i will keep.
i will not build my life around people,i will build my life for myself.
to love myself more than anyone else.alrights?

xoxo,jiabao