this sucks,cause i feel like im leading a double life.
shit happen.
how can i possibly be doin this when both of them are like so fucking nice to me?
arg~
i really dont want to do this anymore.
its giving me such a bad headache.
im already goin through the whole heartache shit,
i just wish that someone would decide quickly.
i love the both of them,i dont want to do this anymore.
got to come to a decision where it would be the best for all of us.the four of us.
sigh.


i just got home from town,went to cini,ate bk,roam around town and talking to her bout my problems.im feeling much better.thanks hon,you really made my day.and along with my most retarded bestfriend,laughs.i ate so much cause someone have to like ask me to eat that much food,and i pratically felt nausea for the rest of the day.i wish i could post photos.
arg~

i think im falling sick real soon.im fucking drain,i wish i could just fall into a deep sleep and never to wake up.sometimes even without realising,i would start tearing.i hate this phase in life.too much complications to handle.i just wish this phase will pass real quickly and the sun will shine once again.

if i could write properly,i think i could have written 3 pages a day.this sucks.cause i love to write.i wish i could do magic,the first thing i would do is to get rid of all my injuries.okay,i think im typing rubbish cause im mad mad mad mad tired.my body feels soooo fucking drain,but yet it just doesn't wants to shut down.they bought a bottle back home.im gonna go join them for a drink.tata.


i just wish for a better day tomorrow.

xoxo,jiabao


Life is full of problems,and here's the remedy.
Denial works for me (denial works for me)
There's a freight train coming,loaded with anxiety
You're tied to the tracks - don't worry (denial works for me)