i am happy for you.
though it means nothing.
i still want you to know,
i still care about you.
i want you to be happy,
to do well in life.

things i want to tell you but i dont have the courage,
do take care of yourself,
do drink less,
do go home more often,
do go back to school and study hard.
and just be happy and i have never meant to hurt you,
but i cant go on.im sorry i cannot be that one
.i hope one day,you will find someone who can give you what you want.
although i cant get to hear those words you said you would say to me(after bejamin buttons show).
but i want you to know even after all these compunction,
i still do care about you and wishes you will be kept away from pain,
danger or whatsoever at arms length.
i dont know how long it will take for you to forgive me,
but just bear in mind,im here if you need someone.
i am sorry.really sorry.

ji nian ping will always be just a ji nian ping now.