The Irony

2009-05-20T15:52:00.002+08:00

i miss you.but its human nature to be selfish.im sorry

2009-05-17T22:16:00.002+08:00

i havent been blogging here for quite awhile.

growing up have never been easy.

never been as smooth as i wished it would be.

learning to be independant is even harder.

there is so many a times where i wished things would be like how it were.

every single time,

i can run to my pillar of strength,

my support when im gonna break.

but things have change,and i know she have her own life to lead.

she cant live her life for me.

she cant build her life all around me.

she do have her own problems,

and adding mine to hers aint gonna do her any good.

i know that if right now i run to her she would still be there with her arms wide open,

but i know at this point of time,

she cant take my problems,

maybe in time to come,

when she settle down,

when things get a little better,

i will just fucking breakdown infrot of her.

cause i know,even if the whole fucking contradicting world walks out on me,

she will still be there.

no many how many fights we have,

no matter how many time we fall out with each other,

things would work their way out of it.

even though right now,we haavent been meeting up alot,

she never left my thoughts.

constantly i find myself talking about her to everyone i can.

cause the thought of all the times we shared will never fail to make me smile(:

and of course the credit goes to her,

my best bitch of all time,

KRYTAL ALEXIS LIM(:

i miss my clique,i miss all of them.

from trav to dawn to pris to joelle and uncle too.

i miss those happy times we used to share.

those were the days,

i miss all the silly little things we do together.

all the laughter we shared.

those times where you guys would hug me and tell me everything is gonna be ok.

and whever i feel down,the words you guys gave,

will always somehow get me through it all.

I MISS YOU ALL:(

i wish growing up and learning to be independant wouldnt be so hard:(

jiabao

2009-05-08T14:37:00.001+08:00

i am happy for you.
though it means nothing.
i still want you to know,
i still care about you.
i want you to be happy,
to do well in life.

things i want to tell you but i dont have the courage,
do take care of yourself,
do drink less,
do go home more often,
do go back to school and study hard.
and just be happy and i have never meant to hurt you,
but i cant go on.im sorry i cannot be that one
.i hope one day,you will find someone who can give you what you want.
although i cant get to hear those words you said you would say to me(after bejamin buttons show).
but i want you to know even after all these compunction,
i still do care about you and wishes you will be kept away from pain,
danger or whatsoever at arms length.
i dont know how long it will take for you to forgive me,
but just bear in mind,im here if you need someone.
i am sorry.really sorry.

ji nian ping will always be just a ji nian ping now.

2009-05-06T09:00:00.000+08:00

growing up in a very complicated family haven't been easy.
when i was little,
i never had the chance to be loved.
maybe yes,mummy loves me,
but it was never carried across in a right way.

when i was young,
i do everything alone.
little and vulnerable,i can only depend on myself.
i take walks alone.
i sleep alone.
i watch the trash play in the wind till noon.

i succumb to my fears,
my fear of being alone.
the yearning of being loved.
through this years,
i made many mistakes,
to find somewhere i belong.
did many wrong things,
but i never did regretted doing them,
cause its the mistakes that mould me to be a stronger person.
i remember someone close to me once told me:
what that doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

through these years,
i've been through couple of heartbreaks,
but these are all inevitable isn't it?
i always trust people.
way toooo easily,
thats why im always prone to get hurt.
i believe whatever they have to say,
i believe it when they say they love me.
knowing how much it will hurt when they leave me hanging at my ends,
they will still do it.
i sow the seed,
i see it grow,
and they will ripped it off its root,
denying it a chance to live.
leaving behind broken roots,
and chunks of dirts.

that wall i build around my heart,
its my only source of strength.
my life bouy.
i hope someone will
reassure me of my fears.
take my hand and run,
run away from my past,
run away from my fears,
run away from everything,
to where they only have me in mind,
and where i would do the same.

a fairytale kind of ending.
am i asking for too much?

2009-05-05T09:43:00.001+08:00

this shall be my last post,im gonna stop blogging.my last words.

im sorry,

i do miss you.

2009-05-05T09:13:00.000+08:00

I'm Sorry lyrics

The first time we met time stood still

You left me breathless

Suddenly speechless.

Within the hour we were one

Two total strangers kissing the moonlight.

Oh, you know I'm sorry I had to go

I'm really sorry it had to die

I'm really sorry I made you cry

Cry.

We fell in love between the nights

Of too many lovers and too many teardrops.

And fate won't resist some satin sheets

I was so helpless

Totally ruthless.

Oh, you know I'm sorry I had to go

I'm really sorry you're hurt inside

I'm really sorry I made you cry

Cry, cry.

Love is lifting you up and draggin' you down

Makes you go round and round and round

Time makes a stop then it's all gone

Funny how memories keep lingering on.

2009-04-01T16:25:00.003+08:00

what ill happen tomorrow?

hidden feelings,hidden words.

i have been trying to reach you cause i've got something to say,but you are talking about nothing and you are walking away.but before i go,there is something i want to say to you,

you make me feel,you make me bleed for the rest of my days,in so many ways.

2009-03-24T02:51:00.004+08:00

Now that it's all said and done,

I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down,

Like an old abandoned house.

What you said when you left

Just left me cold and out of breath.

I fell too far, was in way too deep.

Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.

I should've started running

A long, long time ago.

And I never thought I'd doubt you,

I'm better off without you

More than you, more than you know.

I'm slowly getting closure.

I guess it's really over.

I'm finally getting better.

And now I'm picking up the pieces.

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together.

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,

I got over you.You took a hammer to these walls,

Dragged the memories down the hall,

Packed your bags and walked away.

There was nothing I could say.

And when you slammed the front door shut

,A lot of others opened up,

So did my eyes so I could see

That you never were the best for me.

Well I'm putting my heart back together,

'Cause I got over you.

Well I got over you.

I got over you.

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,

I got over you.

2009-03-23T01:23:00.011+08:00

well apparently,i am doodling around,joelle is like asleep,taking my whole bed!!

but its ok.

cause i aint gonna sleep till morning,and by the time she head to school,

i can have the bed back(:

hmm,im like blogging,fb-ing,texting 4 people,and cooking and im talking to people online.

omg!!feel so busy,like multi-tasking.

well well,i was texting mad,my childhood friend,

was updating her abt my life,

she was telling me that good things don't come by often.

i have to open my eyes and look past everything and see the good,

(she was refering to ugly bung)

but the thing is,i have been thinking and thinking alot.

but no matter how hard i try to think,she just doesnt fall into the catagory!!

gosh.

i tell myself a million times,i just keep repeating,i just have to keep at it.

it doesnt hurt as much as before.

cause i accepted,and comfort did come after i just accept and start to think straight.

im really no longer gonna bother.

well i will try my best to be there for her as a friend,

like i promised,but don't expect too much,

cause my heart is still healing.

wait till the the wound heals,than i can give my best alrights.

joelle yip,sorry if my words were too harsh yesterday.

i hope you know where im coming from

ok,im not gonna type a essay.

ps:i want someone who i can hold on to so tenderly.

at dover after sabai(:

she came into my room,
and started playing with my shades

kor kor,me and joelle(:
omg!!i look fucking spastic!
joelle and me(:
kor kor(:
joelle,me,and the LOVE of my life(:

dont know whats wrong with his smile!

before sabai,i met rachel,and this is the candles that i gave her(:

THURSDAY.

at trav house,joelle POP out of no where!!

and started to take photos of herself.

i look like fuck!!

aww(:

i think its retardedly cute(:

ah haha!!

at home club.

trav

me,vaness,kuan

ironic isn't it?

.trav and her fake dimples.

ciwei,me and gen(:

joy and me

trav's retarded face!

michelle ang and i(:

me,van,mich

me and donn!!

xoxo,jiabao

I should warn you,when I'm not well

I can't tell,oh, there's nothing I can do

To make this easier for you

You're gonna need to be patient with me

2009-03-19T23:17:00.001+08:00

rushing rushing rushing.
got to rush down cause she is coming over to pick me up
than head to home club.
ciaos people.

2009-03-19T21:46:00.001+08:00

you asked for it

melodramatic

2009-03-19T21:19:00.004+08:00

well well,
apparently,to someone,im the one.
its all my fault.
im so done with all the melodramatic speeches,melodramatic acts.
shrugs*
all the twisted stories,all the hidden agenda.
and i feel really sorry for judging,over generalising.
and thinking that she have been talking abt me behind my back all these while.
shake head*
why are people all so hard to trust these days?
im completely speechless.

he said,she said,i said,rachel said,many people said,
maybe there is fear.
a fear of being alone.
a fear that was hidden.
a fear not to be exposed.
hmm..a back up plan?
well i guess im part of it.
done.

one word to describe everything:
MELODRAMATIC

xoxo,
jiabao

-the claustraphobic journey-
We're on the train of no return,no absconding don't turn your head
don't look around,we have to reach the other side
no compunction because of all the thing's I've done
don't you try to fool me you think that I'm mad, but I'm not.
All your stupid stories,I'll never trust you what you got
all these familiar faces
it's like I've been here before,yes they glance at me before
they turn around at first they seemed so nice,
smiling at me but I know better now

redundant

2009-03-19T02:45:00.003+08:00

feeling rather redundant right now.
nothings seems right.
and yes,i think im fucking my life up.
what happen today is like a dream.
i wished i would just wake up from this never ending nightmare.this feeling sucks.
hate myself,hate my existence,hate this world.

well,thanks b.
yesterday,it was beautiful.
and you know whats the irony?
its people who you never thought would comfort you
that brings you such comfort.
thanks thanks thanks and more thanks.
to watch the cars pass,
to walk in the rain
to watch the sun rise,
to enjoy the morning breeze,
to hear the birds sing.
and although it brought me much comfort,
it didnt take the problems away,
the pain still exist.
dont scold me already,im sorry.
i told you that when i can,i will definately pick myself up.
trust me on that,a promise i will keep.
i will not build my life around people,i will build my life for myself.
to love myself more than anyone else.alrights?

xoxo,jiabao

.contradictions.

2009-03-17T22:14:00.003+08:00

owells,in the end,i still choose to deceive myself.
something i can never let go.
something i find,so hard to understand.
something only i would feel.
life changes,
things have changed.
i look around at my surrounding,it is constantly changing.
people come people go.
friends are the same,they come and go.

i found a new way to describe PAIN
it comes and go like the wind,
it is as transparent as glass.
you can feel it tugging at your ends,
but you will never be able to see it.

define friendship?
sometimes i wonder if friendship ever last.
things change.
things never went back to how it was since the other time.
it isnt a drastic change,
people might not be able to tell,
but yes i can feel it.
am i being rather sensitive about it?
im not sure.i dont know.
i dont like playing this game.this game is tiring me out.
this aint the first time this is happening already.
its always like that.someone comes,im left behind.
when things happen,im being picked up again.
since many years back.
yes,many sacrifices were made,i saw them,i appreciate them.alot.
but you knowing how much it will hurt,you knowing how much it will affect me,you still do it.
yes you have many burdens to carry,i have my problems too.
this is all too much for me to take,it hurts fucking bad.
maybe just like every other time,you are gonna say im self-pitying,
im childish,or maybe you will say im brainless.
i dont know,a human's tongue is always the most dangerous weapon of all.cause it pierce straight into the heart.and leave a open wound that would prolly take years to heal.
you know me.you know my past.you know every weak point.why still pick at them?
you said to me before,you promised me,
i remember,outside lunar.
you said,from that day onwards you will spare a thought about how i feel,
do you know how happy i was?
i know you care,thats why your words hurt.
but babes,it hurt too much.
im hurting too much.i never had many good friends,so i hold you very close to my heart.
but this never ending circle seems like it will go on for quite awhile.

i dont know what to do anymore.

jiabao

I hide with the ghost,playing in the darkness
It's what i love the most,i am all alone
Enjoying the silence,enjoying my home
You'd say I ran away,while you stayed to play
With facades in shallow graves
This is not my scene,it's your thing
To be the life of every moment,while I live inside my dreams
Moments like these,revealing the true me
Moments like these,seeing so clearly
A side you will never see

i aint a toy

2009-03-17T00:48:00.004+08:00

ok,life still goes on and on.

krystal is leaving already,and im sad:(

sigh.

im feeling like fuck now.i dont know how to feel.

and people,im ok.dont worry.i never mia!!

will meet up soon alrights?

i just haven't been in the mood to meet people.

trying to pick up the pieces from where i left it.so yea.

i will be fine,jiabao will be fine(:

thanks hons,thanks for the concerns.

well,jiabao thinks its time to put the past behind and bury it all away.

cause i dont wish to go on tormenting myself.

i keep asking for trouble.

its like,i know playing with fire is dangerous but yet i still play with the fire.

im gonna put out the fire that i started.

yes,its time.

and i know it is.

and im ready(:

jiabao is gonna STOP tormenting herself!!

xoxo,jiabao

Unable so lost

I can't find my way

Been searching, but I have never seen

A turning, a turning from deceit

I can't understand myself anymore

But I m still feeling lonely

I'm fooling somebody

A faithless path to roam

Deceiving to breath this secretly

This silence, a silence I can't bear

2009-03-14T21:46:00.004+08:00

my personal hell.a place i created for myself.i scream,i burn,i cry,im torn apart.it doesnt really matter.

it will be a habitual thing in time to come.im no longer holding on.i've let it go.

now all i have to do is to get over it.once you let go,things will never be the same again.

you'll never know how my hell burns

you'll never know how my hell turns

you'll never know how my heart kills

you'll never know what my heart needs

you'll never know just how it feels

you'll never know how my heart beats

you'll never know what my heart leads

you'll never know what my hell means

it's never just like how it seems

you'll never know what makes me freeze

what fucking forces me to breathe

fear is my strength

here in my hell

(to) love means to hurt

tears in my eyes

here I will die

(to) love means to hurt

kiss me goodbyeI'll stay disguised

xoxo,jiabao

2009-03-14T04:17:00.002+08:00

i feel like a walking zombie.
no sleep,and im rushing off for interview!!!
pak,pak,pak is talking to me online.
im soooo confuse now!!
omg!!!fuck!!!

2009-03-14T03:54:00.002+08:00

Hold my hand while you cut me down

It had only just begun but now its over now

And your in the heat of moments with your heart playing up cold

Im between the middle watching hastiness unfold

In my eyes your were smiling in the spotlight dancing with the night

Fell off your mind

Im tired of trying

Your teasing aint enough

Fed up of biding your time

When i dont get nothing back

And for and for and for

When i dont get nothing back

Boy im tired

Where'd you go when you stay behind

I looked up and inside down and outside only to find

A double taking punching hard and laughing at my smile

I get closer you obviously prefer her

im feeling like fuck now.done.period.its pointless to hold onto something that will never belong.

whats yours its yours.

aint gonna try.

tired of trying,i try to hold back my tears once again.

but they just keep flowing.

done with dramas and complications.

i think i shall just drink and drink and drink,

i never wanna be sober!!

i hate this fucking world.

somebody,just shoot me!!

a illusion that i create for myself.i ask for it.

and im still sorry.sorry for everything i said to you.

sorry for not being able to make you smile.

sorry for loving you when you don want me to.

im just sorry for everything

love,jiabao

fucker!!!!

2009-03-13T17:14:00.004+08:00

JIABAO IS STARTING TO HATE THIS MOTHERFUCKING BITCH WHO THINKS TOO HIGHLY OF HERSELF!!
WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS?FANCY TREATING PEOPLE LIKE A DOG!!
GOD DAMMIT!!
WELL APPARENTLY SHE THINKS SHE CAN MANIPULATE PEOPLE SO WELL,BUT IN ACTUAL FACT,YOU ARE JUST A LOSER!!!
ARG!!
DONT LET ME SEE YOU!!!
YOUR SIGHT MAKES ME WANNA PUKE!!!!
YOU SUCK BIG TIME BITCH!!!

JIABAO

2009-03-13T14:55:00.003+08:00

Here I am, waiting for a sign, I never seem to know

If you want me in your life, where do I stand

I just don't know

I never feel I know you

Cause you blow hot and you blow cold,

it seems I've grown attached

Though we're not the perfect match

I just can't explain

I feel your warmth, got me wanting more,

you've left the door half open

I'm in two minds to explore, but then again

Am I being honest, being truthful to myself,

can I see my life without you?

Should I stay
Should I go
Could I ever really stand to let you go?
Can you now find the right words to say
That maybe I'm getting in your way

loves,jiabao

i will have to stand strong no matter how hard it gets,how long it takes

2009-03-12T16:54:00.003+08:00

I ask you to hold me, but you don't wanna hold me,

it doesn't work that way
I want you to love me, but you don't wanna love me,
I'm losing patience now
I'm walking out of the door,I'll make it on my own
did you read my mind,you say don't be blue

-that is the best you can do

xoxo,jiabao

2009-03-12T15:08:00.010+08:00

st james.

i swear we look dam happy

eugene and i(:

the policeman,kelvin

she look like she is licking
my mouth!!

smile(:

before st james at krystal's place(:

oh the donuts hon got for us(:

damm cute!!!!

maybe,just maybe,things would be how it was last time.

the group feels so seperated.

and that fact saddens me.

well,in the first place,all these shouldn't even have started.

im not regretting,just wishing things wouldn't be in this state now.

omg!!yesterday eugene have been one sweet little brat,

i was high,i fell asleep on his leg,

he was suppose to head home with his friends,but he didnt want to wake me up so he waited till 5ish,6.and he sent me home.to the doorstep,when daddy open the door she was like huh??

laughs.

im feeling so bad cause he have work at 10.

okok.

right now,it still hurts to face her.i thought i could,i thought it wouldn't hurt.but it still does.
i dont wish to face it just as yet.i thought we can still be friends,but the images of them just keep flooding in.fuck the pain,its subsiding a little.just a little.maybe in time to come,it will just all fade away.after coming out of so many broken relationship,my heart feels so numb.i am gonna close my heart,to freeze my heart.not to let anyone in.thats the best way for me.

maybe someday,somehow,i will find the right person who will take my hands and take me away from every miseries,every painful moments,every sad moments,and just make the best out of me.i pray,i wish,i hope,that that day will come soon(:

okok.gtg check movie tickets,im heading town with eugene for movie today.not going her story.save the heartaches,dramas and fucking complications!!!!

loves,jiabao

every moment feels like an eternity.

2009-03-12T14:26:00.004+08:00

met kor kor that day.
omg,it was the ride of my life,i swear!!!

her hair looks funny here

super ugly and super unglam!!!

omg!!

a good one(:

aww(:

omg!!i swear if she see this,she is gonna kill me for it!!(:

owells.

it isn't as hard as i thought it would be.

i keep myself busy,time goes faster that way

2009-03-11T20:43:00.003+08:00

Mother Fucking Son of a Bitch

Fucking Doofus

Dimwit

Arsehole

Whore

Slut

Biatch

Assface

Pussy

Dickhead

Fuckface

Buttlicker

Jerk

Asswipe

Bitchass

Bitchtits

Bollocks

Butt Plug

Cumslut

Kid

Dickwad

Douchebag

Faggot

Fucktard

Fuckwit

Son of a Donkey

Jungle Bunny

Muff

Poonani

Prick

Queef

Shitspitter

Shitface

Skank

All for you MFs, digusting gross shitface.

OMFG!

KRYSTAL ALEXIS LIM! (:

2009-03-10T16:25:00.003+08:00

Questions cloud my head with why
Tears on my pillow as i cry
Impossible to hide this pain inside
Thinking bout the times we shared
Makes me wonder if you even cared

fuck!!!i woke up and guess what happen!!!
i came menses!!
fuck man,sometimes the world never look at ones own mistakes,
they tend to look pass it and if they could,
they put the blame on someone else.
but never did they realise,the problem doesn't go away.

i seriously dont know how i fell asleep today morning.
and though i didn't get drunk,i was rather emotional though.
talked to trav,
that was the last thing i remembered.this better be a short post,
or else krystal will say im trying to cover up her post.
laughs(:

poser that krystal spot,one advice,be original.
get your own originality,don't pretend to be someone you ain't.
(babes,who is the stalker you are refering to?)

love,jiabao

2009-03-10T03:48:00.008+08:00

'm blogging cause Jb blogs like no body's fucking business.

Moreover, if you've been following this blog, you should know that i seldom post.

Therefore, 'm pissed at the fact that her posts has been taking up alot of space, pushing mine down real fast. WTF!

Aight, DONE! :D

** Hold up, i think 've spotted a poser. LOL!

Oh, FYI that sickens me to the core. LIKE HELLO?! ewwwwww.

STALKER!!!

OMFG!

Krystal Alexis.

2009-03-10T01:19:00.002+08:00

this sucks,cause i feel like im leading a double life.
shit happen.
how can i possibly be doin this when both of them are like so fucking nice to me?
arg~
i really dont want to do this anymore.
its giving me such a bad headache.
im already goin through the whole heartache shit,
i just wish that someone would decide quickly.
i love the both of them,i dont want to do this anymore.
got to come to a decision where it would be the best for all of us.the four of us.
sigh.

i just got home from town,went to cini,ate bk,roam around town and talking to her bout my problems.im feeling much better.thanks hon,you really made my day.and along with my most retarded bestfriend,laughs.i ate so much cause someone have to like ask me to eat that much food,and i pratically felt nausea for the rest of the day.i wish i could post photos.
arg~

i think im falling sick real soon.im fucking drain,i wish i could just fall into a deep sleep and never to wake up.sometimes even without realising,i would start tearing.i hate this phase in life.too much complications to handle.i just wish this phase will pass real quickly and the sun will shine once again.

if i could write properly,i think i could have written 3 pages a day.this sucks.cause i love to write.i wish i could do magic,the first thing i would do is to get rid of all my injuries.okay,i think im typing rubbish cause im mad mad mad mad tired.my body feels soooo fucking drain,but yet it just doesn't wants to shut down.they bought a bottle back home.im gonna go join them for a drink.tata.

i just wish for a better day tomorrow.

xoxo,jiabao

Life is full of problems,and here's the remedy.
Denial works for me (denial works for me)
There's a freight train coming,loaded with anxiety
You're tied to the tracks - don't worry (denial works for me)

2009-03-09T20:12:00.003+08:00

ahh!!!
all the indecisive barstard!!
i just lie down on my bed and now have to go change cause i have to go out.
but well since im meeting THE person.
ok than-.-'''

2009-03-09T19:58:00.002+08:00

drained.just came back.
yawns~
fucking tired can.
gonna try to sleep again.

ahhhhh!!
i wish i could sleep.

2009-03-09T17:17:00.002+08:00

i toss and i turn, i still cant get to sleep!!!!!
fucking annoying.
i think im getting insomia!!!
fuck the sleep,i heading out!!(:
meet sexy than pak pak(:
drinking again today:P
im gonna start training,learn to drink well(:
yea.

okok.gtg prepare.

2009-03-09T14:28:00.002+08:00

i am done with everything.
its none of my business anyway.
sexy said its just another circle of heartbreaks that i have to go through.
its ok,i have been through worst(:

i still have to keep going(:
and i just move into my room(:
yeah!!!
laughs.krystal say it looks like i got chase out of my house.

owells,im gonna go catch up with my sleep(:
nights.

2009-03-08T08:14:00.002+08:00

the thread thats holding on to my every last bit of emotions is about to snap any min.
why do i have to be hypocritical and pretend to be happy when im not?
i think cause im not brave enough to face heartaches over and over again
one told me this is humanity.
fuck humanity alrights.
well,i hope,i pray,
that one day i will find my answers to everything.
well i know too much,i hear too much,i see too much.
owells,i will just have to pick up all the pieces over again.
but its still all worthwhile cause it was beautiful(:

ah!!!my hand is failing on me!!!thanks to you know who!!
number one accident prone queen!!
my BESTFRIEND!!!!

okok.
my hand needs to rest.

xoxo,ljb

Just when I thought I'd found someone to trust,
you took away your love and
Just when I thought it was safe to come in
You let me want you, and need you, and then
You left me, like a child in the rain
Now I'm mending myself of the pain
Like a child in the rain
Now I'm lost in an ocean of pain
I fell in love and it hurt me
Can't you imagine how I'm feeling now?
Oh, will you ever know how?
You've hurt me.

2009-03-08T05:38:00.002+08:00

i had a fucking bad fall at st james!!!!!!!!
omg!!!!
my flesh can be seen!!!
fuck!!
it hurts alot,

but nothing compared to how fucked im feeling on the inside!!

whoo hoo!!!
lee jia bao

STOP DENYING YOURSELF!!!!!!

2009-03-07T18:44:00.002+08:00

all i have to do is to just smile be it whatever.

xoxo,
jiabao

2009-03-07T15:35:00.003+08:00

i haven't been blogging for awhile.
well well,all staying under one big roof,aww(:

im glad that things have somehow became better(:
and apparently,im still down:(

went to power house yesterday with jo.
omg!!krystal met a new BESTFRIEND!!!
this girl call dawn(not dawnie lum)
and krystal kept feeding her peanuts(:
hmm.
i just came from home,brought my lappie over(:
so im blogging while krystal and joelle is watching the show 'whole ten yards'
trav is in deep sleep,
pris and dawnie are sleeping too.
i friggin slept at six-ish and i woke up at nine!!
fuck man.
well when my mind starts to function,i just cant sleep.
and even if i do fal asleep,i wil just end up having nightmare.sigh.

hmm.well apparently babes(krystal),
renee wasn't the only one that saw joelle dancing with that ah lian.
someone else says she saw joelle with some weird looking girl.
haha.
okay.

my uncle step touching cook pasta for krystal,
i also want people cook pasta for me!!!
apparently only dawnie will cook for me(:
love love and more love.

ok im done blogging.

xoxo,jiabao

ps:self-denial is a very strong mechanism

2009-03-06T17:02:00.003+08:00

Alright.
Though things are differrent, aft all 'd still need a bitching partner right.
And Renee mentioned that Joelle danced with an Ahlian.

Krystal Alexis Samantha Lim Lover Girl

Apologizes to

Travis Samantha Huang Lover Boy. ):

But you didn't have to do that right?
Everyone hasn't updated anything cause we've been living together for days/weeks?
And of cause we didn't have an internet there.
Ate, Slept, Bummed, Movie Marathon-ed, Swam & Drank.
Spastic yet tiring stuff went on at Lunar, Zirca & Rebel. [Lady's Night]
Baby made me hug the Cow & hold Spongebob's hand while i was asleep.
She's cooked for me at the expense of her being late for work.
She said cause she pissed me off the day before.
But HEY. ''m pissed with you right now so F off.

'm done for now.
Bringing the laundry back.
Gonna shower.
Dawn's chasing.
Bye.

krystal alexis

2009-02-27T09:03:00.001+08:00

goodbye and sorry.

krystal alexis lim

2009-02-22T19:31:00.002+08:00

We had a get-away which consist of :

LEE JIA BAO BESTEST.
JOELLE YIP FUCKING HATES ME.

AB
TRAVIS SAMANTHA HUANG LOVERRBOY.

RENEE PAK PAK PAK.

AMELIA FISHY FISH FISH.
LOVERRRRRRRRR YOU KNOW WHO.
& I OF CAUSE! (:

All together five days, four nights!
With AWESOME company!
& drink drank drunk!
OH! we met elaine.

Such an awesome place, with awesome people tend to cause some to miss school & work. ):

Some fainted due to low blood pressure, cause she walked pass an Indian lady [our neighbour].
Many got high, some close to drunk.
Everyone ran around the place, got lost in the maze .

Skinny dipped with Jb & Loverr! <3

Trav & i suntanned & talked! Lol.
Cuddled together & watched DVDs.

Some drama mama.
Last but not least,
BUTTER PORK!!!

The person whom 'm dating is presently with her ex-girlfriend at their friend's wedding dinner.

Jb, Joelle, Trav, Renee, Dawn & Pris is at a wedding dinner too! A different one though.
TWO WEDDING DINNERS ON THE SAME DAY! Lol! How coincidental!

I wonder what would i be like ten years down the road.

xoxo,
Krystal Alexis.

2009-02-21T21:29:00.001+08:00

i rather hear it from you,than to hear it from others.

well,i dont know how to put it to words.was never good at speech.maybe when i find a better alternative in expressing how i feel,when i sort my thoughts,when im ready i will SHOOT!!!
laughs. well for now,i just wanna enjoy every moment spent(:
hugs*

ps:where got people say themself mean one!!!pouts*

i just came back from my so called get away(:
it was fun fun and more fun(: though there was boring times where we just slack around and do nothing,it didnt matter to me cause everyone i love was there(:
im very easily contented(:
i have all their companionship,where we could laze around together,snuggle together,and exchange all the nice warm hugs(:
what more can one expect?(:
well we went swimming starked naked at night,
took photos,
drink,
met elaine,
ate,
ate more,
and had plenty plenty of sleep(:
oh forget to add in the frequent switching of tv channels as well(:
aww.
its like one big family(:
feeling so attached to everyone right now(:
hugs*

you guys sure know how to make my day(:
love love love and more love(:

2009-02-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

im thinking,thinking about what sexy told me about.sigh.
its really frustrating cause whatever she said made sooooo much sense and it fucking make my brain start working.

hmm.giving it a good thought might be a good thing though(:

ARG!!!!

2009-02-12T04:17:00.000+08:00

on monday night(:

when krystal came back(:
yea!!

sickening look fucking cute(:

i know i look like crap!!

uncle and me(:
i like this picture cause i think i look good in this photo.
lols.

omfg!!

sotong stick(:

she was advertising for the bottle(:
haha.

i like this photo too(:

at maxwell,after play(:

at butters(:

look at the pimples and swollen eyes(:

you guys are always there,thats why i love you all(:

2009-02-12T03:50:00.001+08:00

i dont know how to tell you how much joy you've brought into my life.
through the toughest moments,
you took my hand and took me away from all my troubles(:
thank you JOELLE YIP!!!!(:
hugs*

So many nights, I'd sit by my window,
Waiting for someone to sing me his song.
So many dreams, I kept deep inside me,
Alone in the dark, now you've come along.

And you light up my life,
You give me hope, to carry on.
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song.

Rollin' at sea, adrift on the waters
Could it be finally, I'm turning for home
Finally a chance to say, "Hey, I Love You"
Never again to be all alone.

And you light up my life,
You give me hope, to carry on.
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song.

You, You light up my life
You give me hope to carry on
You light up my days
And fill my nights with song
It can't be wrong, when it feels so right

Cause you, you light up my life

2009-02-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

forgiveness plays a huge role.

pak pak!!thanks for being there through it all(:
and yes since words are given,
i hope actions will prove it all(:

omg!!!i wanna watch benjamin buttons show again!!!!

and krystal is back.a total rundown of a bitching session yet to be given(:

xoxo,
jiabao

2009-02-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fucking screwed man.
complicating issues.
sigh.

i am kinda irritated by the whole situation.hmm.
renee is soooo OMG!!!she cant even remember our conversation!!!
shucks.
owells,i really cant wait for krystal to come back.
i think there will be like a major bitching session.
hmm,
dawnie,i aint angry,i aint blaming anyone,love you still alrights(:
i just hope things would be fine on your side.
hmm.
sorry?
i dont know why,i dont need sorries alrights(:
im like ??????
okok.i just wish,just wish,things would be better.
everyone to be happy and maybe,
one day,
everyone can hang out together like how we use to.

i still love everyone(:

thanks uncle,thanks sickening(ps:even if u say im ... im still angry) and thanks renee.
thanks dawnie,daddy,hope you are fine.
joelle,got to smile cause i like it better when you smile(:

KRYSTAL LIM TALKED TO ME ONLINE TODAY MORNING!!!!!(:
so im in like a major good mood today(:

still not done blogging.
photos at butter not up yet.

2009-02-02T01:11:00.000+08:00

today i was at travis's house for the whole day.she practically ignore me case she was glued to her com.laughs.i swear she is freaking retarded.hanging the stupid towel over her boobs.so hot.as usual,she is the HOT one of the group(:

met dawnie,daddy,sickening renee with joelle yesterday.my gods!!

ate like mad alot cans.

yea,at around 9plus me and the hot mama went for dinner at joo chiat.

met renee there,joelle came to meet us after work(:

and she is like appear out of no where one lors.

like the ghost or erm..maybe the wind?

laughs.well,went to aljunied and waited and waited,and yay!!

finally home(:

owells,im like blogging while this two retards.....

i miss KRYSTAL!!!!!

one week is sooooooooo friggin long!!

and she complains her fingers are like freezing!!shucks!!i miss her.

and there is one friggin LAZY pig beside me would actually sleep while...

gosh.shake head*

owell,im in a cam-whoring session today(:

.when boredom strikes.

you never fail to brighten up my day

sugar rush!!

i seriously cant see my eyes!!

one word.

fool(:

im acting cute and she is acting cool.

and now is the other way round.

hugs*

this is like my the other half.

twinie.

its you!

rarrrh!!!

act innocent siol!!

the wtf face-__-'''

and its her that stood by me(:

scary looking teeth.(her)

aww(:

retarded shoots.i swear!

whatsu trav?

travis and i found new name for ourselves siol!!

XIAO FIRE AND XIAO STAR.(:

goodnights people,cause someone bug me and say i blog dammm slow.RARRRH!!!!ciaos~

jiabao(:

2009-01-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

this are my new year photos(:

ah jun and me,

he just came back from kl

so he decided to kiss yain
again

this is soo random

now yain is sooo excited he wanna
kiss jun back(:

at first jun is unaware

when he realise,
he tried to run

cousies(:

he was trying to act gay(:

ah qing and me

(cousie)

yain(:

gay boy.

yawns~

pink shades siols(:

now is some round shaped shades(:

went to some animal fair.

this thing is so colourful right?

this is a porcupine(:

this leopard cat is just so pretty!!

omg!!the spider is so big!!

long neck turtle!!
for uncle ah beng!!

this is a real lion know(:

baby chimps,

they are wearing pampers(:

ah wei(:

yea im finally back(:

and yes,i can see you now that im back(:

yay!!3 cheers(:

♥jiabao

2009-01-28T04:15:00.000+08:00

practically my cousin bully me.
nothing much to do her.i went to the euro fair today.
took rides,won some retarded looking keychain.wanted to win the spongebob one for uncle..
but my aiming not good.
im covered in bruises that cannot be seen.
and pretty much visiting,eating and gambling.
played fire crackers.
and yea finally home and i talked to my sweetie babies(:
i was like soooo happy.
travis and her hot thai mama.
all she can tell me is her hot thai mama.-___-
owells.
my cousin's friends are over,they are playing poker.
sigh,tomorrow....
boring,mundane.
jiabao needs to pick up the pieces from where she left it(:
i think..

omg!!im going to ciaos!!cousin is coming to bully me again!!arg!

the way i feel is almost like a crush,
my heart beats faster,
its almost like a rush.
and when you are in a room,
i could tell when you are around,
just by the scent of your perfume.

♥jiabao

2009-01-27T19:46:00.000+08:00

omg!!!
im freaking full!!i havent eaten sooo much in like sooo freaking long.didnt do much.running around malaysia,and i miss all my sweetie babies already:( im super sad,cause like it feels dammm different:(
hmm.collected quite alot of angpao.but its all in ringit.like convert to sin dollars abit not worth it.hmm.i ate like sooo many things.omg!!and so many uncle,aunty and cousin cannot reconise me.and their reaction was....yea.

i miss....
i want you to know,you made my day(:and i miss you bad.

ps:its you,its you,its you.if you think its you as well,its you.
(for sickening esp)

im starting to flutter like the butterflies(:

♥jiabao

2009-01-24T11:59:00.000+08:00

define love.
what is love?
someone once told me,"love is 1% happiness and 99% pain"
somehow i can relate to that.i swear,my love life is damm fucked up.
see,first it was von.now its mb.hmm.
what did i do to deserve all this?
didnt i treat her good?didnt i?

well,i hate the fact that i could ever hate her,
and the fact that i will love her no matter what she put me through.
why?i always ask myself.how is it that she can manipulate me so well?
why do i let myself sink into this fucking mess?i hate it.just one sweet thing she does,it can make me forget all the wrongs she have done to me.just one simple word "i miss you",affects me soooo much.
just one,"i wanna see you" i can drop everything and just rush down.
everyone tells me that im a fool.
yes i admit,i am a fool.
but,when i see her cry,when i see her upset,it tears me apart.
i will have this urge to just hold her and tell her she will have me through it all.
sigh.i know that all these shld stop.
i shouldnt let her manipulate me any longer.
but how?how am i suppose to do it?
sigh.
maybe someday,you will realise that "there was once a girl who was willing to give me her all,but i let her slipped through my fingers"one day.

and meanwhile,jiabao have to stop caring so much.
stop getting so affected.
stop being so emotional.
and stop disappointing those who care sooo much for me.
thanks peeps.i really need all the encouragement i can get.
i know you guys are with me through it all.love you guys man.

♥jiabao

2009-01-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

i seriously think im a robot.

i aint got no feelings:(

2009-01-21T01:44:00.000+08:00

well well,went to woodlands yesterday with uncle and krystal.damm.
i got lost in woodlands,and i swear i dont know what i was doin man.
lols.met up with some people.hmm.
anyway,i dont know what you mean by "you regret being with ------'' but it doesnt make any sense.please stop brain fucking me.stop deluding me alrights.
just go on with life.and be happy,with no regrets.

babes and me

at woodlands(:

and than we saw this cat,

super fat!!

he jump up the chair and sat nxt to me(:

well,sunday night(:

we drank champange.

me,bao and krystal.

and they were trying to get me wasted,i didnt though.
haha.
but i was damm high(:

and stupid uncle cam-whore with my phone!!

see my uncle and babes(:

yea,thats us(:

uncle keeps hogging the com!!

see,typical ah beng!!

♥jiabao

2009-01-18T19:06:00.000+08:00

today morning uncle came over my place after work,
she wanted to shower.so i ask her to shower in the master bedroom's toilet,but my master bedroom toilet has this transparent glass thingy in the middle.so she made me promise not to peep.but than while she was inside,her phone rang,so i rush in cause she haven't even take off her clothes,she was in her singlet and boxers!!!
ok its fucking ridiculous cause she claim that she is naked and she ran to the kitchen toilet wrapped up in a towel when she is still fully dressed-.-'''
(kitchen toilet dont have transparent thingy)
okok.look at her being gay,i caught it!!mwahahaha!!
revenge is sweet:)

rush rush rush to the kitchen toilet

she claims she is naked

dam sissy right.

and again,sissy pose.

run run run!!

dont look!
IM SHY!!

whee-wheet!!

hot!!

uncle bought moo moo for bestie:)

sweet right.

friday,

was fucking...

ok i met joelle,travis,renee,bao and krystal at bugis cause travis insisted on chicken rice.
than we head to bugis village.gosh i think we pratically laugh at almost everything to the extend where our stomach hurts like mad la.lols.

yea,travis tried on a wig!!!
she look dammmmm HOT man.

one sexy hot mama she will be.lols.

after bugis we head down to town to catch a show.

fucking bullshit show.wtf!!

but we created nuisance in the cinema,i swear.disrupt peace and all.

fucking funny.laugh till my stomach hurts.but the show was absolutly not worth 10 bucks man.

shrugs.but overall,friday was fun:)))

bao and me got caught cam-whoring again!!

(yea i found a cam-whore partner:)my uncle!!)

im trying to get her
ARSE!!

smile(:

and again

we are travis's wife.

this is a family potrait!!

krystal is like,dont take my photo!!

than travis is like,hey i want to be in tt photo!!

i seriously dont know what renee is doing.haha.

see my cam-whore partner!!(:

pouts

i was trying to get into the photo

its us againhmm

she is trying to act cool again-.-'''

trying to kiss?

and i come in between?

looks as if huh?

OUR GROUPIE EMO SESSION!!

krystal

travis

jiabao

joelle

renee!!

than we went to eat bean curd at parklane(:

the background is nice right?

credits to renee((:

punk rock???

aww..pouts*

this is like dam random

uncle and me emo-ing

but its nice right?

joelle and me.

and i dont know why she is looking at me like that.lol

before our movie pris and dawn came over to say hello((:

our usual

at bugis

that time at krystal's house,

i wanted to feel how bungs feel when they bind.so..

haha.

there you go,the pictures tell it all(:

krystal trying to tighten it!!

having a good laugh.

double binder!!

flat siol!!

im the man(:

the final touch

suppse to be posted with the other photo of me and travis,

but it was in bao's phone.

so a late post but hey it doesnt really matter(:

look at me and travis man.

dawn emo-ing at a corner

oops!!sensorship!!

retarded face!!

this is what i call,ROMANTIC(:

♥jiabao

2009-01-17T01:41:00.000+08:00

i want you guys to know,you are the reason behind the smile on my face:)

i love you all man:)

loves jiabao

2009-01-16T06:00:00.000+08:00

my thoughts,they keep running.
i cant help it.
i feel so low abt myself,what do you take me for?
a tissue paper?a toy?
i seriously dont wish to know whats goin on in your life anymore.
fuck it alrights.
when you need me,you come to me.
when you done,you throw me aside.
and than when you want me back,you pick me up.wtf is wrong with you?
i hate you,i hate you i hate you!!!
stop fucking with my brains alrights!

arg!!

I HATE YOU!!!!!

IM DONE DONE DONE AND MORE DONE!!!

2009-01-16T05:22:00.000+08:00

12 jan 2008
fuck it i failed my o fucking badly.owell,i aint surprise anyway,
bestie and bao came to school and mad loads of people were staring at bao man!!
after results went to town and caught a show with bestie:)

bed time stories:)

13 jan 2008

they were checking out her boobs man

than later her phone

look at bao's face man

hey i've got bamboo hands!!

act cute!!as usual

cover my armpit hair!!oops

my love man,

couple for the day!!

lols
i swear we look friggin high!!

and her armpit did not sweat,

its water!!

look at her face!!omg!!

kisses*i look like crap and wtf,

look at the fucking pimple!!

hmm..

she has the huh look on her face

14 jan 2008

wedding wedding and more wedding:)

i was cam-whoring!!

this is christian,my new found friend

and again

smile:)

15 jan 2008

well went to have dinner with uncle and manage to catch some ugly shots of her.lols

went to her story at night with daddy,dawnie,travis,renee,joelle,bao and bestie:)

we drank like almost two bottles of absolute vodka.and as usual,i got friggin high,puked alot,cried,and i was becoming really emotional.all of them was there,

i love you guys,i am really glad to found you guys:)

and joelle,thanks for taking care off me and talking to me.

thanks dawnie for holding me and being there.

thanks sickening for being a high bitch and made me laugh,and loving me:)

thanks daddy for being there and lending me her jacket.

thanks uncle for your concern,

and lastly thanks babes for always being there to love me:)

i love you guys man:)

and its the heartbreaks that made me grow

i swear i was so close to wasted!!

see my uncle!!

kopitiam ah beng!!

i said she was a kopitiam ah beng,
and she act cute

see the legs,underneath.

there was this hole there and since her

hands hurt,due to the accident,she

put her hand through the
fucking hole man!!

see the hole!!

♥jiabao

2009-01-12T06:01:00.000+08:00

i wa surfing the net,and i somehow came across this song.
someone send me this song before.laughs,
thinking back,it have really been a long time.
things never did get better,and i feel sad about it
cause not only have i lost someone i loved,but also a good friend,a good big brother.
thinking back abt our memories,i cant help but smile:)
so i decided to post this song up:)
its really sweet.
hey,it have been almost a year,i hope,one day,we can still be friends.

You're not alone, together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know
I'll take your hand
When it gets cold and it feels like the end
There's no place to go, you know
I won't give in
No, I won't give in
Keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through,
we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you,
I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say, nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
So far away, I wish you were here
Before it's too late this could all disappear
Before the door's closed and it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah
Hear me when I say when I say, I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Keep holding on
Keep holding on
There's nothing you could say, nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

♥jiabao

2009-01-12T05:38:00.000+08:00

im taking my results later in the afternoon.what am i suppose to do?

sighs.worried worried worried!!

tonight ONE-TIME!!!!

whoo hoo!!

im screwed,prepare my grave.

bao and KRYSTAL came over to my place

bao fell asleep,and look!!

she is wearing a hello kitty watch:)

both hold sentimental values to me.

i know its like wrong arg.

babes and me started to bake cookies:)
see our cookies:)

made one in the shape of a shit for bao
there,she cant wait to eat her shit:P

omg!!i started cam whoring again!!

as usual

♥jiabao

FAT MAMAAS!

2009-01-11T02:09:00.000+08:00

HEY THE BLOG CONSIST OF JB & ME ALRIGHT!
& my name's always missing from the links. ):

Okay, what a topic for my very first post.
Thank Jb for taking time off to do all the posting while i bum around!
Jb's snacking off beside me.
've been home for like two days, mens cramps.

I miss

DAWN LUM!
GRANDSON!

SAM TRAVIS!

BAO.

& B

Dawn & Pris, CONGRATS YO! <3

Sam, please go for your check up & take care alright! && CHEER UP kk? <3

Obviously i don't miss Jb.
Gosh! I see her like everyday.
Thank god i don't ever get sick of her. [she can get quiet annoying sometimes] LOL!
Babe, joking aight. LOVE LUH!
Fuck, 'm so freaking bored at home. ):
OHHHH! My mother saw Bao!
She called Bao a stupid cow! & Bao laughed. WTF! -.-
So we went to the poolside to talk instead.
Jb & i were suspose to head to the tattoo convention today cause i could get in with the pass.
But we choosed to sleep. ):
Fucking wasted man. I was actually looking forward to it. )):
Alright, 'm so done blgging cause i think 'm getting real boring.

B, you so shouldn't have done that.

'm out yo!
krystal alexis.
<3

2009-01-11T02:08:00.001+08:00

KRYSTAL complains that her name is missing out:P

♥jiabao

2009-01-11T01:16:00.000+08:00

you called,
left my thoughts lingering for a moment.
well,apology accepted.
i dont deny that whatever that happened hurts.
but it motivates me to become someone stronger.
thanks for everything:)
hope that you will be happy,thats the most you can do for me:)
right mb?

♥jiabao

2009-01-10T20:42:00.000+08:00

I'm still hurting from a love I lost

I'm feeling your frustration

Any minute all the pain will stop

Just hold me close

Inside your arms tonight

Don't be too hard on my emotions'

Cause I need time

My heart is numb, has no feeling

So while I'm still healing

Just try and have a little patience

I really wanna start over again

I know you wanna be my salvation

The one that I can always depend

I'll try to be strong

Believe me

I'm trying to move on

It's complicated but understand me'

Cause I need time

My heart is numb, has no feeling

So while I'm still healing

Just try and have a little patience yeah

'Cause the scars run so deep

It's been hard but I have to believe

Have a little patience'

♥jiabao

2009-01-10T20:24:00.000+08:00

nothing much happen today,no photos,no nothing.
im drained.
slept,woke up eat,
and now im blogging:)

♥jiabao

2009-01-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

9th jan 2009

i went to eat ice cream with rachel and KRYSTAL today!!

the chendol ice cream rocks!!its dammmm good!talked to rachel,told her what have been troubling me.sighs.

went back to krystal's house,parn and friend came over,

later in the night i went to town,met up with my sickening,(took alot of photos,but its all in renee's cam.pouts*)and renee.my sickening and i started bitching alot!!ALOT!!

laughs.talked about our past,talk about our present,talked about our partners.hmm..

whatever it is,

for sickening

you will have me through it all ok:)and i love you.plus dawnie,and daddy,and my bestie!!!yea!!we have each other right?:)

owells.and after meeting them,they went to catch their boring show,i went to meet her,

went over her house.

nothing much,mundane day.but still sickening made me smile:)loves*

went over her place at night:)

parn and me:)

parn tried to hide,
krystal took this shots.

caught my turtle fucking

krystal's one!!

8th jan 2009

went to st francis with krystal,and caught some 'gay boys' in action

this is nong:)

woo hoo
happy fucking yohz!!

♥jiabao

2009-01-09T14:38:00.000+08:00

i've been trying to reach you,

cause i've got something to say.

but you are talking about nothing,

and you are stepping away.

maybe its time to let go,

but maybe at the end of the day,

i still want to say to you.

you make me feel,make me bleed for the rest of my days,in so many ways.

somehow this lyrics remind me of someone,except the letting go part.

cause it haven even started,so how to let go?right?owells.its complicating.

but she have been a sweet little brat.

i dont know i dont know i dont know.

♥jiabao

2009-01-08T08:45:00.000+08:00

hey YOU.
this goes out to you.
im done with your nochalance,
done with your attitude,
done with all the pain that you've put me through.
and all i can say to you,
is that,
im DONE.

i will move on.im sure i can.
goodbye love,goodbye pain,goodbye past.
goodbye to you MEIBAO
all the best:D

my heart cries,but no one hears

♥jiabao

2009-01-08T08:27:00.000+08:00

thurs.1st jan
this bike is damm cute right?
saw it when i went for aunty serena's house warming party with my mum and KRYSTAL.

spongebob is at the seats:)

and i couldnt help but cam-whore again

movie night with krystal,alex,cheryl and justin.

-we smuggled cheryl cause there is five of us,justin distracted the uncle!!

tues.6thjan

bao is gone

me and krystal were fucking high!!

we went drinking at rebell

krystal look sooo hot man

look my face is fucking red.

looks ugly!!

arg!!

before we head out..

i cam-whore again

this is like freaking act cute

but fuck who gives a damm

and i will smile like that for you:D

that was in the morning before we slept,

bao fell asleep on that bench!!:)

♥jiabao

2009-01-08T08:11:00.000+08:00

i met up with god pa like last week,
haven't posted alot of photos.
i have 3 extra siblings:D

krystal and elle

elle looks really

adorable

even when she is angry!!

greedy!!cant wait to eat ice-cream!!

and this is the little rascal

nicole:D

princess nicole

after our meal,

i decided to cam-whore

♥jiabao

2009-01-08T07:58:00.000+08:00

im like still awake!!!
i went to the friggin gym this morning with krystal
my gods!!
it have been so long since we last exercised.
owells.

we bump into this cute little thing

when we were walking home:)

aint she friggin cute or what:)

we sat at the pool side after exercising and we
candid this man ..

gym gym gym!!

all ready to workout!!:)

krystal:D

can you imagine someone as girly as her

doing exercise now?

hey!!she is a strong bimbo ok!

lols

and that goes out to von tay,

"strong bimbo"

and thats me:)

i scream,i shout,

cause my MUSCLES are aching!!

2009-01-08T04:50:00.000+08:00

well, i guess, i am still having my sleepless nights.

argggg!!!people,im such a goner!!!
im so gonna flunk my freaking o level papers!!
oh my tians!!

seriously,today i came across a very interesting blog,they call themselves the "TIARA TEAM".
and you know what they do?they discriminates what they call as ah lians.seriously i doubt they even have the rights to do so.tsk.lamers!!
sickening you would have a good laugh if you check this blog out.you are one bitchy little bung:)
"thetiarateam.blogspot.com"
haha.owells

i've got lots of catching up to do,
clarice im still counting down the days for you.come out soon:)

till than,
we meet again
♥jiabao

2009-01-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

bored.
im done with the past,
goodbye PAST.

❤jiabao

2009-01-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

bestie was freaking wasted!!

its all once in a while,so its a must must to post it up:)

teying to change for her but she

freaking kick me!!

we cam-whore

cause we didnt have anyything to do

im like trying to bit off her head:)

our ah lian pose attempts:)

in st james:)

on our way to st james:)

we drank like a whole bottle of vodka

we are like freaking high:)

ultraman pose except this ah bao!!

surrounded by hotties:)

sickening made a new friend:)

lols

loves loves

dawn and krystal acting innocent sial!!

choose who is more innocent?

huh?

her tits are abnormal!!

unglam huh?

act baby-ish

look at her boxer showing!!

posted by jiabao:)

2008-12-28T16:28:00.000+08:00

wish that i could move on,
can't let go it's too strong.
just like that and then you're gone.
is this how you wanted it to be?
everything you had to said ,
sent the tears right down my face.
now i'm trying to escape the misery.
why don't you love me,
the way i loved you?
it feels so crazy,
cause i dunno what i did to you.
if you're gonna hurt me,
then do it quickly.
cause i'm tired of cryin'
if you don't wanna stick around,
then, baby forget about me.
too late, sorry.
i didn't even have the chance.
you said you were happy.
baby i don't understand.
gave you everything you asked for,
and was ready to give you a lot more.
i would've given you the world,
right in the palm of your hands.
boy my heart was true,
and that you can't deny.
don't be a fool,
and walk away from all the lies.
it's up to you cause heaven knows i've tried.
forget about me,i really loved you...

❤jiabao

2008-12-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

did i miss your call again?
no, you never called it was a thought inside my head.
did i take the fall again?
i shoulda payed attention to all the words you said.
cause i lost today.
i'm not okay. heartbreak, a fake smile, and 2000 miles.
i check my caller id.
now there's every number but the one i want to see.
i've been falling apart.
since you been gone i don't know where i need to start.
cause i lost today. i'm not okay. heartbreak, a fake smile, and 2000 miles.
away she is. i can't live like this. heartbreak, a fake smile, and 2000 miles
if i told you that i love you would it matter at all?
if i told you that i need you would you catch me if i fall?
cause i lost today. i'm not okay. heartbreak, a fake smile, and 2000 miles.
away she is.
i can't live like this. heartbreak, a fake smile, and 2000 miles

❤jiabao

2008-12-28T15:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a bad day,
i went over boat quay to find her cause she had some problems and i wanted to be there for her.
sighs.things changed,drastically
i know that all these are inevitable.
but i asked her,would she be there for me even as a friend,and she said no.
it hurts.
hell loads it hurt.
i dont want to continue drowning in miseries.i want to be set free.
like i told you,these memories i will hold them close to my heart.
no one can take them away.whether its good or bad,happy or sad,it will all be kept in my heart.
friends will be there i know.and thru it all,krystal have always been there.
i know she have grown sick and tired talking to me about this topic.but it hurts.
hey YOU im done with you.DONE.
i dont wish to have anything to do with you anymore.
i have had enough.
i dont wish to continue drowning in this emotional whirlpool we have created for ourselves.
and since i cant bring you the happiness that you yearn for,
i hope your new girlfriend can.
NO MATTER HOW LONG IT TAKES,HOW HARD IT GETS TO GET OVER YOU,IWILL AND I CAN!
i love you i dont deny.so i hope you can make the going through less tough for me.
stop contacting me unless necessary over relevant stuf.i dont wish to know how well you are doing or how much you are hurting.i just wish to stop knowing,stop hearing,stop loving you.
if ever you see me on the streets.take it as though you dont even know me.
i think its the best for me and the best for you as well
all the best love.

❤jiabao

2008-12-28T15:36:00.000+08:00

26th dec 2008

friday

major cam-whore session i swear!!

she blew the freaking smoke at me!!!

im trying to get her arse!!
happy girl receiving
her christmas present:)

why you drink so much?
huh?
face so red now!!

fucking unglam!!
tweeze!!
bat-girls!!

cute aint we?:D

punk rock!!

neh-neh-ni-poo-poo

bleahs:p

i swear she is a closet cam-whore!!

sexy and shanny came over after:)

i swear she look fucking retarded!!

shanny cut his hair!!

finally you can see his face!!

he is my B for a day:)
(shanny is krystal's cousin)

spastic!!

❤jiabao

2008-12-28T15:18:00.000+08:00

25th dec 2008
thursday

i went dating,and my date brought me to vivo,
went to eat at some 'white bone cafe' ,
than i wanted to sit cable car so we headed towards mount faber jewel box.
than back to harbour,than to sentosa and back again.
i was like not interested,so i didnt talk to him.
i told him i was a lesbian and he don't believe me.owells,what to do?
after that i went to catch a movie,Australia.
was a good show,but kinda draggy.but the storyline was good:)
but its freaking three hours!!omg!!
than after movie he went off and i went down to PLAY.
was quite boring that day cause everyone was not in a very good mood.
and and travis got wasted again:)
haha.as usual:)
didnt manage to take pictures at play.so..
oh and bump into some old friends)

if im not wrong,

this is baileys coffee

pork chop baked rice

it was good,but fucking filling!!
erm..seafood wrapped in bacon
but its not bad:)

scene from the cable car

and i cam-whore on the cable car,

pratically ignoring him.lols

and im wearing my christmas present from bestie:)

i love her:)

owell,my christmas was kinda sad.

went over bestie's place for dinner,

after that head to church for christmas mass,

met kelvin.

met kimberly.

head home.

sleep.

and i had a tiff with mb that day:(

(it doesn't really matter anymore cause i have to let go.)

loves,

jiabao

st james on travis's burfday:)

2008-12-28T14:53:00.000+08:00

21st dec 2008

sunday

st james on sickening's burfday,i swear she got fucking wasted.

she went up to some random guy and told the guy she loves him-.-'''

i was like wtf!and the guy says he love her too!!

well that guy was drunk too.the blind telling the blind the same thing:D

owells,she is the silliest thing i ever known:)

but i simply love her:)

sickening and ah bao

see her sexy face?

ready to seduce.

i say,travis learnt the art of seduction:)

travis look like someone gonna fight with her-.-'''
gorgeous and ah bao
and again..

joelle and me:)

my gorgeous :)

joelle and mb

joelle and bestie

kisses*

smile for the camera:)

mb and jasmine

renee and i

(my 'twin')

sickenings!!<3

aint they lovely?

groupie:)

see my lovely sickening

krystal and travis

sharing a waterfall

jas,mb,bestie

travis still owe bestie a drink:)

loves,

jiabao

bao's unglam shots:)

2008-12-28T14:33:00.000+08:00

okay,there was like travis right?this is bao!!:)

ok i know you will kill me for this,

but revenge is sweet:)

aint she pretty?

there she goes,acting cute again:x

pretending to be cam shy,
but she is a fucking major major
CAM-WHORE!!

oops,krystal touch her titties :P

actually secretly,

she likes man..

shh...

okay this is bao's bao's post,actually i have more,but i shan't be that mean:)